Copious amounts of guilt.
Anxiety has crept in,
like foul weather.
Drivers of all models hydroplaning,
on horrendous roads.
Holding the steering wheel,
as if human and leather skins melded as one.
Recollections of a six-year old child’s mind.
Car accident near Binghamton,
family station wagon,
crashing on the bridge,
hovering near the river.
Telling myself to plow through,
my frightened children’s horror.
No clear windshield view.
Too much fog…
Too much cold…
Too much fear…
Too many cars trying to fly away.
A frozen mind,
that is almost sixty,
and in fear of,
Alzheimer’s.
Wrong exit…
Wrong lane…
Wrong thinking…
As tears poured and a flood of four letters word escaped my lips.
Thoughts came back over and over again,
of that January 1972 day.
Screaming and just screaming,
back to exit 31 with more guilty tears.
Searching for penitence,
Slashing myself with words of condemnation.
Looking over the events of Sunday morning,
still seeking forgiveness.
Even through God had
pardoned me,
yesterday.
About the Poet:
Mary Anne Abdo is an author, poet and photographer. She graduated magna cum laude from Luzerne County Community College with a degree in Human Services. With a background in freelance journalism; she uses her poetry as a source of creative expression, which reflects on many facets of what it means to be a human being living in these modern times. Her self-published poetry book, “Fractured Lollipop Poems of Brokenness Healing and Hope is now on Amazon
Mary Anne has a passion for art, culture and literature. Her work has been featured in The Edge of Humanity Magazine, Moonstone Press,Grit and Grace Magazine, Orenaug Mountain Publishing,Pennsylvania Bards,Local Gems Press,The Avocet, Calla Press,Scranton Poets Live, and Studio B’s annual poetry anthology. Mary Anne placed second for her photography and short story submission in the Museum of Family Prayer’s 2022 Mary Garden contest. She has also collaborated on several children’s book, Creative Gems Volumes 2&3, and has been featured internationally in Bindweed Magazine’s seasonal anthology. She has appeared on the local talk show PA Live, The B Inspired podcast and several stage appearances. She is currently working on her first children’s book due in September 2024.
You may check out her work on: Facebook: Mary Anne Abdo/Poet/Author
WordPress: https://bluestainedglass.wordpress.com
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/maryanne.abdo/
YouTube: @maryanneabdobluestainedglasspoetry64
TikTok: @mary.anne197
Linkedin: Maryanne Abdo
On these sites you will find her current projects in photography, video and various forms of canvas art.
Mary Anne resides in Pennsylvania with her family.
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