Watching Clouds by Ari Bouse

Watching her pass by in my thoughts is like watching clouds

float by in the sky when I was a kid.

In my mind, I can feel her presence and wonder what it would be like to be with her.

My soul travels to a parallel reality where we are together.

You can't control who you fall in love with.

And yes, it's possible to love more than one person and have more than one soul mate.

I like to think of our connection as kindred spirits.

Perhaps we belong to the same soul group.

In the mirror of my mind, I meditate on gratitude for her presence in my life

and focus on feelings of clean love and clean care.

But it's not without the tension of opposites or dark and stormy edges.

For example, when I know she is struggling, I picture Reiki symbols and send her good energy.

If I feel myself getting seduced into too much attachment or even codependency,

I envision Archangel Michael cutting energetic cords with light saber-like swords.

And then I picture a spinning disc, reverse its direction and disintegrate it.

Ah, the magic of the moment leaves me feeling recharged and centered.

If only for a moment.

I remember the former wisdom when the clinging and grasping catches my attention.

We are coworkers and we have work to do.

We're in the business of kids.

We both have families of our own with our own entanglements with the ties that bind.

I remind myself that it is perfectly natural for a mutual attraction to occur and develop.

Most of all, I remember to be gentle and kind to myself,

in this fantastic theater of life.

Sometimes, I wonder what is more real- the physical world we are living in

or the imaginative luminosity of brain centers that light up in visualization-meditative realms.

At the end of the day, when I hear about her dreams . . .

I envision them manifesting for her and let go of it.

If it happens it happens, if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen.

Life is a sacred mystery and we live in a sensuous Universe!

About the Poet:

Ari Bouse is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker, ReikiMaster, Published Author, and Educator. He has almost 25 years of social work experience, and has been working in Public Schools in Maine, for the last 17 years. Ari has been a husband for decades, a dad for many years, and an animal lover too. Also, Ari chairs the Mental Health Awareness Team, and serves as co-advisor for a Civil Rights Team in the school community he works in. Ari was born in Alaska, grew up in the MidWest, and New England, and lived in Australia while studying abroad in College. He has hiked in the Andean mountain range in Venezuela, and also all of the 48/4000 footers in the old White Mountains of New Hampshire. Ari’s name means lion in Hebrew, he was born in the Chinese year of the tiger, has lineage connections to a band of gypsies that fled Spain to Italy during the Inquisition, Judy Garland, and the Mille Lacs Band of Ojibwe.